More Updates....

I have been posting very sporadically here, which for the most part is good because that means things are going at an even keel. Megan has another PET scan in August and that will show the status of the tumors.

She is still working at Mohonk, and plans on marrying Dole and leaving town as soon as she can set up house at whatever military base he is assigned to.

Personally, I think they should live together for longer than the 7 months they have before they consider marriage, but you know, she has to live her life the way she sees fit. I don't know how she will do as she is leaving her entire support system behind her, and I am sure Alanna is going to miss her family very much. I know I will...as they have been a very intergral part of our lives for three years.

Dole will undoubtedly be shipped off at some point to Iraq. But we can alwasy hope for miracles. I have to remember the principles of Al Anon...I can't control anything, all I can do is focus on the things that I can change, and find a place of peace in all of this.

It has been one of my biggest challenges, letting my children go. Well, letting a lot of things go, but we won't get into that. It has been hard but I am fortunate to have a great therapist, to have art as therapy, and am willing to do that work that it takes to find peace and love. And, I have wonderful friends and a husband who accepts me for who I am (for the msot part). I guess I can't ask for more.

I will check back in from time to time and keep updates going. I have the summer off so I will be working religiously posting to my Eat Man Drink Water blog, and am starting one "Catskill Paper" which is purely about art. I need to run separate blogs in all of this as I love to do my daily musings, but also want to keep writing about art.

Thanks my readers for hanging in! patti

The Bearer of my Joy

Megan has been busy, I have not talked to her much. Life seems to be going back to normal, yet it never quite does. Pain still lurks, the upcoming PET scan brings the dreaded "what if". I keep praying that we will beat statistics.

We go on a day at a time. We enjoy the love and innocence of our grand daughter, and I can't think about their leaving.

I know at some point in time we are going to have to discuss this as I know Dole is probably going into the Army full time and they will move.

I worry. About Megan, about Alanna, about her cancer. I don't want to let either one of them go, but I must.

My other blog talks about how innocence soothed the scorpio in my today. May her innocence also bring joy, love, and healing to my daugher's life and give her the strength she needs.

Keep her in your thoughts. All your prayers and meditations have gotten us through a very rocky eight months, and for that I am eternally grateful.

A photo of Larry and Alanna tonight after our pasta dinner. She loves him so much.

In joy, Patti

QUICK catch up

This is really quick and I don't even have a photo to post, but it has been a while since I have posted and I owe you all a quick blog.

Megan is working up at Mohonk 20 hours a week as a valet. I can't imagine any place nicer and more beautiful to work for the summer. She is easing her way back into the workforce as she has no more money and is feeling well enough to work part time for now.

Her next pet scan is in 2 months and so far she is feeling good. She still needs a hip replacement, but she does not want anything done right now as she needs to recover from six months of feeling horrid and being dreadfully ill.

We take it a day at a time. It is a relief to see her feeling better.

No news on when she may move, nor on Dole's deployment. He is still away...being trained in the deserts of California. What torture for her.

I keep hoping for a miracle.

xxpatti